- I cannot get a blog post up everyday (or even at a regular time), comment on all the blog posts that I'd like to, or stay up to date on those posts (I'm usually 2 or 3 days behind)
- I cannot get everything done at work before I go home each day
- I cannot bake something from scratch for someone's last day at work
- I cannot spend enough time playing with the dogs and taking them for walks
- I cannot see my friends every week like I want to
- I cannot keep up with my personal emails and social networking sites (Twitter, Facebook, etc.) like I probably should
- I cannot stay up each night until all the laundry is folded, dishes are put up, the house is clean
- I cannot keep functioning on less than 6 hours of sleep each night (I'm averaging around 4.5)
- I cannot always be the sweet girlfriend that there's for him when he needs me
- I cannot be the perfect daughter/granddaughter that calls and visits enough
What I can do is:
- Realize that I have to take care of myself first or everything else will suffer
- Know that I can only do my best
- Understand when I'm at my breaking point and take a step back
So, I'm not going to stress that I used pre-made cookie dough to bake cookies and made a Jello No-Bake Cheesecake instead of going all out like I would have preffered. I'm not going to stress that somtime's emails go unanswered for a couple of days. I'm not going to stress that I haven't called my grandfather in the past few months. I'm not going to stress that at this very moment, the dishwasher is full, there's a pile of laundry in the dryer and my bed is unmade and....
Instead, I know I've hit a wall and it's time to re-evaluate. It's time to retreat from all my responsibilities for a little bit and take some me-time. Take time to get a plan of action to get the most important things done. Maybe get a massage or a pedicure. Just relax...because life goes by far too quickly and I don't want to spend it with a racing heart and a knotted stomach.
I am not Superwoman, but I am doing the best I can and that's all I can ever ask of myself.