Monday, April 26, 2010

Balance...

I'm a compulsive list maker. I honestly feel like I have to be in order to accomplish what needs to get done. I put everything on a list...absolutely everything. I even include stuff like:
  • Shave your legs
  • Walk the dog
  • Use lotion
  • Mouthwash
  • Floss
Stuff like that! Things you should just remember to do. It doesn't work though. I always feel like I'm lacking in some area of my life.

If I remember to keep my legs shaved, I forget to get regular pedicures and my feet get nasty. If I remember to work out 4-5 times a week, my eating gets out of control. If I remember use lotion after every shower, my hair just gets thrown up so I can make it to work on time. If I remember to use mouthwash and floss each night, I don't get around to shaving!

It seems never-ending. It's not just regular grooming and taking care of myself stuff that gets all out of whack. If I'm keeping up with that stuff then there's a good chance that housework or bills or something else is getting neglected. I just can't seem to get on one schedule that accomplishes everything.

I'm so envious of those women that are always so put together: they dress nicely, their hair and nails are always done, they can cook and entertain and their homes look great even if you stop by out of the blue, they work hard, they exercise, they're not stressed and frazzled and are very warm, friendly souls...I want to be one of them.

Anyway, this entire post came out of the fact that I need a pedicure, manicure, I'm too lazy to brush, floss and use mouthwash tonight, my bedding doesn't match because one of the dogs peed on the bed (last week and I still haven't taken the comforter to the drycleaner and am instead using an old blanket!), my house isn't clean, I'm dreading work tomorrow, and I have a friends birthday Wednesday that I want to go all out for, but I'll be lucky if I can find a decent present and some decorations.

If any of you are one of the women I described-tell me your secret!!!

I'll have some picture posts soon-I just haven't downloaded the pics yet...just another thing to do!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Mom's Know Best...

When I moved out of my parents house and started my freshman year of college my mom made me a care package. I think it had a bunch of candy and food and some other items, but the thing that I remember most is this little book of quotes called "Reach for the Stars." I'm sure you're familiar with them-you can buy tons of them at Barnes and Noble, Wal-Mart, Target, etc.

This particular one is really special to me though. My mom and I didn't always have the easiest relationship in high school and it warmed my heart that she included this little book. She wrote on the inside cover and called me "spudly" which made me smile because for some reason that was a nickname my parents called me when I was little. It'd been a very long time since she'd called me that and I realized how much I was going to miss her while I was going to school.

Anyway, I wanted to post some of my favorite quotes out of the book:

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face." Eleanor Roosevelt

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall." Confucius

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simply your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler; solitude will not be solitude, poverty will not be poverty, nor weakness weakness." Henry David Thoreau

"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn." Harriet Beecher Stowe

"Do the kinds of things that come from the heart. When you do, you won't be dissatisfied, you won't be envious, you won't be longing for somebody else's things. On the contrary, you'll be overwhelmed with what comes back." Morrie Schwartz

"People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something that one finds. It is something that one creates." Thomas Szas

"Expect the best; convert problems into opportunities; be dissatisfied with the status quo; focus on where you want to go; instead of where you're coming from; and most importantly, decide to be happy, knowing it's an attitude, a habit gained from daily practice, and not a result or payoff." Denis Waitley

"It's so important to believe in yourself. Believe that you can do it, under any circumstances. Because if you believe you can, then you really will." Famous Amos

"It is only the first step that is difficult." Marie De Vinchy-Chamrond

"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." Norman MacEswan

"When will you realize that "today" IS the "tomorrow" you hoped for "yesterday"?" Ken Keyes Jr.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." Reinhold Niebuhr

"Happiness is a habit-cultivate it." Elbert Hubbard

"Every person has a purpose and a reason for being on earth." Sanaya Roman

"Don't worry about what the world wants from you, worry about what makes you come more alive. Because what the world really needs are people who are alive." Lawrence LeShan

"The reason why most people miss opportunity when it comes along is because it comes dressed in work clothes." Brian Tracy

"The dictionary is the only place where success comes before work." Arthur Brisbane

"Cherish your friends and family as if your life depended on it. Because it does." Ann Richards

Alrighty, I'm headed to bed soon! Please, please hope there aren't any tornadoes tonight. Facebook has all these status updates about tornado possibilities and I would like for them to stay far, far away.

Night!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Happy Birthday to me!

It's my birthday today! I had a yummy Starbucks breakfast before work, worked for a few hours, went by the store and got some ingredients for fondue, came home to eat lunch and then took a glorious nap! It's been such a relaxing day. Tonight S is coming over to make fondue, eat dinner and then maybe watch a movie. I think it'll be a pretty low-key night, but those are my favorite kind!

I actually have a lot on my mind today. I find that I use birthdays and holidays to reflect how my life has been since the last year. Have I lived the way I wanted to? Accomplished everything I set out to? Am I proud of how I've used the last 365 days?

On this exact day last year I got off work early, went to Wal-Mart and bought a black leather journal and found out that my bank turned me down for my home loan. I spent the majority of the drive home from Wal-Mart crying because I didn't think I would be able to get a home. I wrote in the brand spankin' new journal that this was the year I was going to grow-up and quit crying about stuff like this and figure out a solution. I ended up applying to another lender that offered FHA loans since my bank didn't and I've now been in the house for over 5 months! I'm definitely proud of myself for making that leap and buying a home.

There were several things that happened in the last year that I'm happy about, but for my 25th year I'm determined to do more with my life. I feel that I've become jaded working in an industry that can be pretty aggressive. (I negotiate contract language and budgets with pharmaceutical companies for the research site I work at). Sometimes I spend the majority of the day just arguing and going back and forth with people that are mad or stubborn or whatever and I get what S calls my "business Cassie" attitude on and I can get pretty mean. I'm good at my job, but sometimes that means I leave work knowing I haven't been as kind as I should have been.

So this year I want to be a nicer, kinder, more understanding person. I don't want to be so quick to judge others, because unfortunately this is the one quality I hate most about myself, and realize that I don't know these people that I'm quick to make assumptions about. I don't know what's going on in their lives or what they're dealing with. I think most people have a story to tell and that if we just took the time to listen we might realize we jumped to the wrong opinion.

I want to live in the moment more. I'm so very Type A and sometimes I get so caught up in my lists and quest for perfection that I forget that I'm not guaranteed tomorrow. So why waste today worrying about it? I'm also contemplating a new birthday tattoo. Something along the lines of living in the moment. I know I want it to be a saying or words and no color other than black. I just haven't decided on the exact thing for it to say yet.

I want to be better with this blog because I enjoy looking back and seeing who I was at a certain time. I can't really do that if I'm not posting very frequently.

I want to be a better friend that knows that no matter how busy I think I get, none of those things on my list matter if I lose my friendships.

I want to spend more time with the puppies. Take them for walks everyday. Love on them more.

I want to depend on my parents less, show them they raised a healthy, independent woman that truly can take care of herself.

I want to make my health a priority. So many times I find myself exhausted and just wishing I had more energy so I could do things like play with the dogs, meet friends for drinks, etc. I want to research those foods that give you energy and really make an effort to incorporate those into my diet and cut out the energy sapping fatty foods that I like the most.

I want to be more patient. Life isn't a race...it isn't about who gets there first, it's about living it. Sometimes I just need to stop and BREATHE.

I want to really find out what my passion in life is and pursue it. It used to be going to law school and making a difference by being an attorney. Since I was in the hospital when law school started and I now work with contracts all day, I've realized that it's no longer my passion. I'm seriously considering going back to school to become a nurse, probably a pediatric nurse, after experiencing first hand how amazing nurses truly are. They took care of me and advocated for me and I think I would finally be in a job that was rewarding to me. I've contacted a local hospital to participate in their shadowing program to make sure that this is truly something I want to do before going back to school-I'll keep you updated!

I know this post is super long-it was mostly for me, but thanks if you made it through! I want to come back to this post next year and see how I did. I want to make this the best year of my life to date :)


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I've been...

I've been:
  • playing a bunch of Farmville. I'm beyond addicted to this game. I log in every single morning to harvest, plow and seed my plots. Do any of you play? If so, tell me so I feel a little bit better about this obessession! It's crazy how much time I spend playing.
  • drinking lots of Starbucks thanks to a giftcard from my godparents mother. She's the sweetest woman and always sends me a gift for Easter. She obviously knows me well...coffee gets me going in the morning.
  • enjoying my boss being on vacation. While I still have lots of work to get done, the atmosphere is just more relaxed when he's out of the office.
  • trying to catch up on reading everyone's blogs and making time to post on my own. I obviously rely on work time too much to keep up with the blog, because when work gets busy, the blog gets neglected.
  • celebrating my birthday! My birthday is actually tomorrow, the 21st, but since that's a Wednesday, I did some celebrating this weekend. My parents and I went to The Melting Pot because it's by far my favorite place to eat. Cheese and chocolate fondue? Yes please!
  • deep cleaning my house because one of my best friends drove down to see if for the first time! She made the nearly 2 hour trip to hang out and see my new home so I wanted it to be pretty for her :)
  • thinking of ways to save money. I would love to decorate the entire house immediately, but I'm slowly accepting that it's a work in progress and spending all my savings just to have it done would not be a good thing, no matter how appealing it seems. I have this nesting issue where I need everything to be put up, decorated, etc. to feel truly comfortable, so this has been hard.
  • reading this story. It's about a 23 year old woman that got diagnosed with cancer and is now 28, but losing her battle. I'm only on Chapter 9, but it seriously helps me to appreciate my health and make the most out of every moment. I reminded myself several times this morning that even though I was tired, to not be grumpy, but instead be thankful that I have a job that I can wake up and go to.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Spring...

  • I love the smell of freshly cut grass.
  • I love watching the trees and plants start to bloom.
  • I love the smell of grills being fired up.
  • I love the pretty blue sky.
  • I love spring rainshowers.
  • I love seeing the baby horsies (and yes, I know that isn't the proper way to say it).
  • I love that I can say baby horsies and it's okay because it's Spring and people are just in better moods.
  • I love sitting on back porch in my papasan chair just getting lost in a book.
  • I love breaking out my flip flops and capris.
  • I love that skin finally starts getting some of the moisture it's been craving all winter.
  • I love that I hardly ever get shocked by my car anymore.
  • I love driving around with the windows down and music up loud.
  • I love the sound of birds chirping outside my work window.
  • I love getting to leave my jacket at home.
  • I love that it's still light after 8pm.
  • I love that swimming weather is right around the corner.

What do you love about Spring?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Happy Tuesday!

I don't know about you guys, but Tuesday mornings are always the most difficult for me. Usually I'm able to get up and out of bed on Monday okay because I've gotten to get some sleep the past two days. Tuesday is HARD though. I just woke up early yesterday and I still have to do it three more days this week :(

So in an attempt to cheer myself up, I thought I'd pass along these two awards from Toby's Life...



You should definitely check out Toby's blog! It'as all about Toby going through training to become a guide dog :) I'm going to pass along these two awards to the following lovely ladies:
So each week my best friend and I switch off and cook for each other on Tuesdays. This week it's my turn to cook so I'll be making the sloppy joes I blogged about awhile back, tator tots, baked beans and brownies! I'm super excited for a casual, yummy dinner.

Have a great day girls!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter!

I hope everyone had a great Easter! I'm still sick and going on day five of "the fever" as I've started to call it. I have no clue whether I've got a cold, the flu, a sinus infection, etc. but whatever it is, I'm ready for it to go away! It was a gorgeous weekend and I'm ready to spend some time outside!

So when I'm sick I crave junk food and comfort food, but I've now lost 8 lbs and I don't want to ruin that. I was just so hot and feeling yucky that I wanted something cold and nothing was sounding good. Then I remembered that I had one of these in my freezer:

I had the strawberry banana flavor and it totally hit the spot. It cooled me down, filled me up and was only about 135 calories-win!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Awards!

I'm going to be completely honest with you...I'm a sucker for getting awards! They make me feel so loved! However, it takes me FOREVER to pass them along because of all the linking to everyone else's blog. So I greatly apologize if you gave me one of these awhile ago and I'm just now getting around to posting.

So onto the first award! Cassie at Starting from nothing and learning as I go gave me this super cute Blogger BFF Award! I first found Cassie's blog when she commented on another blog that I read and I noticed we have the same name! So of course I hopped on over to her blog and found out that she has such cute, fun posts-how did it take me so long to find her!?!?!


I was given this next award by Jen at A Girl with Pearls and a Boy with Toys. She's such a sweetheart and I love reading her posts! Oh, and check out her little pup Batman-such a cutie!



The rules for this award are:

Post where you want to be in 10 years

Pass it along to 10 of your blog friends

In 10 years I'd like to be settled into a career that I can happily spend the rest of my working years doing. I'd also like to be married with a couple of kids-hopefully at least one of them will be a girl! I love all the girly baby stuff you can buy right now :) I'd also like to have a really close knit circle of girlfriends. I feel like as we get older we kind of drift away from our friends and I hope that I'll be able to maintain many of my current friends and gain even more new ones. I still plan on having my two pups and I can probably see selling my current house and moving into a new one once I do have kids.

I'm passing this award onto these lovely ladies!


I have two more awards to post about, but I'm saving those for another post!


Friday, April 2, 2010

Lemon Cookies!

This just might be one of my favorite dessert recipes that I've made! And the great part is, they are SUPER simple! In fact, I made them last Tuesday night after I'd eaten dinner and gotten everything else I planned on doing done. I never bake on the weekdays because it can be time consuming, but these babies were done quickly and I was still able to get in bed by 9pm! Don't make fun of me for going to bed so early-I have to get up before 6am for work :(

So here's the recipe:
  • 1 box of lemon cake mix
  • 2 eggs
  • 2 tablespoon lemon juice (I used lemon juice you buy at the store instead of fresh lemons and it turned out fine)
  • 1/2 cup vegetable oil less 2 tablespoons (you should have 1/2 cup total when combining the lemon juice and oil)
  • 1 tub lemon frosting
Stir together the cake mix, eggs, juice and oil until a dough forms. Heat the oven to 350 degrees and grease a cookie sheet. Drop teaspoons of the dough onto the cookie sheet and bake for about 8 minutes. Let cookies cool and then frost.

I only used about half the tub of frosting and I think each cookie ends up being about 110 calories-this helps me since I'm calorie counting right now :)




I found this recipe on the Tasty Kitchen website. It really is so good. I'm not big on lemon chicken or pasta recipes with lemon, but I find desserts with lemon to be so refreshing!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I'm keeping it PG...

So I mentioned awhile back that I was asked by one of my best friends to go to this "slumber party" she was hosting. It's actually an adult party for women and I was pretty nervous about going, so I wanted to give you an update!

The party was actually a blast! It turns out that everyone else was kind of feeling as awkward as I was and the presenter made a really big effort to crack a lot of jokes and put everyone at ease. If we answered a question right or read a description aloud for her we got a necklace with a picture of a hot male celebrity that we called our "boyfriends." The person with the most boyfriends at the end got a big discount on whatever they bought, so it kind of encouraged everyone to participate and just have fun!

I will say that some of the items are very fun and flirty-not at all risque, but towards the end of the presentation the presenter brought out some pretty crazy stuff! However, to keep this blog PG I'll share with you some of the not so scary things that I picked up:

I know it's hard to tell, but this a candle that you can use as massage oil once you light it and the wax melts or you can use it cold as a massage cream. Mine is a chocolate scent and it smells delicious!

This little heart is one of those things that will heat up by pushing on this little metal disc inside it and turn into a solid heart. To turn it back into liquid so you can use it again, you just boil it in hot water. I actually love this little thing. I know that you can find these other places-probably for much cheaper since you aren't paying for the brand-but I never seem to remember to pick one up. I have pain in my side from all my surgeries and this little heart is the perfect size to lay where I'm having pain and ease it all away! I also used it on my jaw when it got so sore a couple of weeks ago. I'm sure the company intended for it to be used in an ummm, more sexual manner, but oh well :)
I ended up getting 4 or 5 things and so did most of the other girls there. You go into a private room to order so everything is really discreet. I would definitely go to another party!

I'm home sick today....

which is no good! I was just sick in Feb. and missed two days of work and I know my boss probably isn't happy about me missing work again :( It really sucks too, because after I got sick the last time I started eating better and exercising-I take a vitamin everyday too. I guess I was just hoping that it would be awhile before I got sick again.

However, I do have good news for the day....I've lost six and a half pounds since I started tracking calories on March 17th!!!!! Woohoo for that!

 
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