Sunday, August 16, 2009
This has not been a great weekend. I completely BINGED on food. It's not that I just ate more than I should or made poor choices, I ate and ate and ate when I was already stuffed. I bought all my trigger foods and had ice cream and pizza and taquitos and I don't even know what else. And now I'm thoroughly depressed. I hate what I see in the mirror, I hate that I've done this again, I hate that I'm not thin. I don't know what's wrong with me. I used to overeat when I was dating S because it caused alot of emotional upheaval in my life, but I have no idea what the problem was this weekend. I haven't even talked to S in almost 3 weeks and I'm actually perfectly okay with that. I think the real reason I ate the way I did is because I'm not happy with the way I look, but then why go pile on more pounds with junk food?!!?!? It's a stupid cycle and I want to be done with it!